A couple days ago, I heard my roommate talking about some money she lost. I heard her talking about it in the living area… She never brought it up directly to me. When she came in the room, I asked her if she lost money and she said she had. The whole time I was extremely worried that she thought I took it. Tonight, I finally confronted it and just told her that I would never take any money of hers, or anyones for that matter. I feel so much better by just talking about it. It may seem scary to talk about certain thing, but it sure does leave the mind at rest.

 

Praise God for listening to my prayer of letting my head rest. I really need to stop letting things get to me so much! I look too much into things. One day it’ll drive me absolutely bonkers.

Downloaded a Bible App. I’ve started doing devotionals. I absolutely love them. I want to do so many, but I know I should focus on a few so that I may really be able to relish in what Scripture has been presented to me on a certain day.

I’m trying this blog thing so I can just journal. About anything really. And just for myself. I’ve tried this before, but hopefully I’ll keep up with it. I’m a person that harbors feelings and things, so I’m hoping this is some place I can write them out and they won’t bother me as much. 

I’m hoping this will help with my relationships; with Jesse, with friends, with family. Instead of running to tell someone else about something that happened and then to continue talking bad about that person, I want to just run here…. and then to hopefully forget about it.

I also want to grow in my relationship with God. I used to have a great one and I want that back. I truly, honestly do. People in my life have claimed to be very devout Christians and have honestly came out liars because of that… and it sickens me. Also, I want to help bring Jess back to God. I know he might have never had a good relationship with Him, but it makes me sad that Jess is super angry with Him (though it is extremely understandable).

 

So if you come across this, pray for me and my journey. Pray I find it through and I don’t give up. Pray I find the strength to live each day as best I can even if people make a certain day difficult for me. And I, in turn, will pray for you.